Back with baby =)
Phew. One last day to the end of prelims!! Just got back home from school. Know what? Elijah and i are back again!! Went over to his place yesterday. Honestly, i didnt want to try anymore. Cos i believe sometimes i tried too hard that it backfires. So i kind of backoff a lil'. So my purpose was no longer to work things out but to clear things out, like him. Believe it or not, i tossed a coin in front of the altar. Head, we'll get back together. Tail, not. And like the chinese beliefs, i tossed it 3 times. And guess what? THREE HEADS! Seriously, i dont know to believe it or not but i guess, that just gave me another reason to TRY. Furthermore, Jasmine was there supporting me like really gave me the hopes. So headed to his place with the stuffs he returned me. He was unhappy but oh what the hell. What can i do with all those stuffs he returned? After returning, he kind of chased me off his house. Was sitting in a corner of the stairs, feeling all hated so i thought i left only 2 choices which is either we'll end it NICELY or we'll end it by hating each other. So i put all the lovey feelings behind me and met him up again. Kind of went well till he started reminding me the past like, "Next time you want any songs, you can ask it from me online!" Okay, if you all dont know, thats how we got to chat up with each other and know each other better. He also mentioned things like lucky it's only 8 months and all. Argh!! i couldnt take it and burst into tears, laid on his shoulders, believing it'll be the last time i'm doing it. And i put down all my pride and asked if i could spend the whole afternoon with him and he agreed to it. When back to his place, got to thank leslie, really. He left him some messages online and i guess that made him changed his mind. i kind of admire leslie for that. i dont know how but he's able to talk this kind of sense even though he hadnt really gone through them personally. Anyway, things got cool, and we've decided to work it out. I would say, i really learnt a lot in this relationship. I have this "never say die" attitude. I dont know if it's good or bad. But i know i'll never keep on trying if i failed the first few times. Also, i've learnt that love is definitely stronger than pride. For love, i gave up my pride. Anyway, it's another hurdle down. Having quite a lot of bumpy roads in this relationship, i hope the smooth ones will come soon. But still, am glad to have overcome so much with elijah. But what's important is that i hope baby does see how much i love him. Apart from all those endless tries, i dare say i NEVER deprive him from freedom, so long as there's a limit to it. like whats the extend he could really get close to a girl. I'm his girlfriend, not his mother. And i gave up quite a number of friends, specifically GUY friends. But i'm not sure why but i no longer feel tied up. Now that i really know what's "nothing else matters with you around". Not literally, but more like i'm willing to give up anything for him. it's like giving up those friends for him. WOW.. LOVE.. a simple yet powerful word. i cant believe I'm saying all these.... but what the hell. Anyway, i dont really care if we'll live till the last day of forever or not. I dont even wanna think about how long we're gonna last, are we gonna get married. Question is why should we worry about the future when we have yet to worry about the present? if we cant make it for the present, do you think there's even a future? Cherish is all it takes. Cherish every moment cos' you'll never know seriously, when's the last. We've got each other and i guess.................. thats enough for love.
With love, on Thursday, September 21, 2006
xxx This scene is DEAD xxx
xxx This scene is DEAD xxx
